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We go to school every day. We learn pointless things,
but we are never taught how to love ourselves.
We aren't taught how to make moments last.
But I think the most unfair thing, is that at the end of high school,
we are tested on something that we were never taught.
We have to stand in front of each other and say goodbye.
I’m just gonna keep my eyes closed.
Because this is like that moment in the morning when
you first wake up and you’re still half asleep and everything seems
like things are possible, dreams feel true and for that one moment
between waking and dreaming anything can be real
and then you open your eyes and the sun hits you and realize;
I’m just gonna keep my eyes closed. Right now, someone you haven't met
is out there wondering what it would be
like to meet someone like you. We cling to music, to poems, to quotes, to writing,
to art because we desperately do not want to be alone.
We want to know we aren't going crazy & someone
else out there knows exactly how you're feeling.
We want someone to explain the things we can't. 
When something seems to go wrong,
it is invariably part of a bigger right. We all take different paths in life,
but no matter where we go, we take a
little of each other everywhere.
Together forever, never apart.
Maybe in distance, but never in heart. Sometimes when I look at you, and you're looking back at me,
I can see something. This small hint of something more,
something you're feeling but can't say. When our eyes meet,
it's like we're instantly connected. And I know no one catches
it but you and me, but I like it that way. It's like our own little secret
a place we go to when everything around us is crazy and we just
need some semblance of normal. God, your eyes are gorgeous.
There are times when I want nothing more than to look you in the eyes,
cause it's when we're looking at each other in silence that
we end up saying the most. just tell me why I was never good enough.
I think you owe me at least that much. after all
the months of second guessing and falling down,
you owe me this. so before you go run of to your pretty
little new girlfriend, look me in the eyes and tell me
why after I nearly killed myself. trying to be perfect
for you, I still never really lived up to your expectations. 
The Bhudda said that suffering was caused
by desire, we'd learned, and the cessation of
desire meant the cessation of suffering.
When you stopped wishing things wouldn't fall apart,
you'd stop suffering when they did. You're bored of cheering me up.
Bored of calming me down.
Bored of drying my eyes.
But there once was a time when
you were the one.
You were the blue of the sky,
you came after the storm.
You were the switch on the wall,
in the dark of the hall,
I'm still fumbling for. She wanted something else, something different,
something more. Passion and romance, perhaps.
Or maybe a quiet, heartfelt conversation into the
late hours of the night. Or perhaps,
something as simple as not being second. And she knew better, but her heart didn’t.. 
after all that's said and done, i still do think you're amazing,
i still cherish every moment i ever spent with you and
every smile you brought to my face. i'll forever be thankful
that someone like you was brought into my life,
even if it had to be taken away too soon,
see you were my miracle, you were my fairy tale i got to live. You're probably thinking I've forgotten all about you by now,
but that's far from it. I have missed you every waking day and
my heart still hurts, but I'm getting better. I continue to smile
and still go on without you. I know I have missed you,
but I have kept it all inside of me, only for me to know.
I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you're doing,
what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice.
just everything - I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting
of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason.
Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future,
that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this;
no matter what, even through the screaming fights,
the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we've cried,
never ever did I give up on you. Sometimes it’s hard because I wish I could tell you
how after all these years, I still continue to love you
every single day. Never ignore a person who loves you and cares for you.
One day you may realize you've lost the moon
while counting the stars. 
so once again i feel my heart break over something that was in my head.
but don't forget, i meant every word that i should have left unsaid. Sometime you just have to try not to care,
no matter how much you do because sometimes
you mean nothing to someone who means everything to you. The reason he'd broken up with her was, ironically,
for her own good. He knew that if he asked her to
drop everything and follow him across the earth, she'd do it;
if the roles were reversed, though, he wouldn't.
They were at different places in the same relationship,
and like anything that's out of alignment; they were
destined to crash sooner or later.
By taking care of it early gently, he liked to think he
was only trying to keep her from getting her
heart broken even harder. i won't ask for promises, so you don't have to lie.
we've both played that game before.
first i say i love you, then you say goodbye. 
It always rains hardest on those who deserve the most sun. but aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
i don't consider this a mistake, i just wish the
story didn't end this way, cause i'm still in love with
the person who helped me write it. look at the stars
they're the same stars as last week,
last year.
same as when we were kids.
when we weren't even born.
in a hundred years
no one will ever know who we are
but they'll know those same stars I don't want to see you anymore, I'm just not that strong.
I love it when you're here. But I'm better when you're gone.
I saw him staring at me. Not glancing, but blatantly staring.
And I wondered if he was staring, at the wreckage he created,
or if maybe, just maybe, he regretted ever hurting me in the first place. There'll always be that first true love.
The one you first spent the night crying for.
The one that never really worked out but you
kept your hopes up too much. The one who got away.
The one who taught you all you need to know about love.
And the one that until now, is still the one you look
back to whenever you try to love again. 
It's like you feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist. Some of the most interesting friendships are between
people who are attracted to each other, but can't act on it. When you meet the other half of your soul,
you will understand why all the other lovers
had to let you go.
When you meet the one who deserves your heart,
you'll understand why you and all the others
have to be apart. I miss him, not enough to want him back, but just enough for it to hurt. The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy
to tell others how much they love them while they're alive. God, many things are coming against me.
Life hasn't treated me right, and it's left me
holding on to hurt that I don't know how to control.
God, help me to see the beauty in the world
even through all this pain, and bless me with the
chance to see the world shine with love
as bright as your love shines in my heart. The only true failure is never trying.
Even if the whole world says you can't,
if God wants you to, you can. you're never alone,
i'll be in every beat of your heart
when you face the unknown. 
You were that breath of fresh air in my life,
& maybe that's why I'm finding it so hard to
breath now. But I don't think I'll ever look at another sunset
without thinking of you. I'll love you my whole life. xoxo rachelle. | 
Rachelle. 18.
